a lover's complaint
 female. seventeen. just trying to deal with everything, everyone and myself.

the URL is from the Fray's lyrics 'if i don't say this now, i will surely break', which sums up the content of this blog.

"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope" - Martin Luther King Jnr

the hardest part is when you want to cut soooooooo much.

i’ve been scratching at my scars to stop myself from cutting. they’re all raised and numb. i don’t even know if that’s any better. at least i won’t get a scar from it. 

my body was shaking… not shivering, but actually spasming. i could barely even contain my silent screaming and swearing.

i’m so tired. and i just want my dreams so badly, more than anything in the world.

and i’m sick of issues with friends and boys and fitting in and certain subjects at school, because they don’t matter.

all that maters is football and getting into uni. that’s it.

but these other things seem to matter to other people, which means that they get angry when these things don’t matter to me. what is wrong with people, let me live my own life.

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