a lover's complaint
 female. seventeen. just trying to deal with everything, everyone and myself.

the URL is from the Fray's lyrics 'if i don't say this now, i will surely break', which sums up the content of this blog.

"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope" - Martin Luther King Jnr

i feel like my bestfriend is turning against me. she’s always talking sharp back at me and telling me that she doesn’t care for what i’m talking about.

i can’t lose another friend.

i swear, i won’t be able to trust anyone again if i lose another friend.

since high school started:

first two best friends - bullied me.

second best friend - stopped talking to me all together and starting bitching about me to everyone

third best friend - talked shit behind my back, dated the guy i’m in love with and made sure i knew it.

fourth best friend - has deleted me off facebook for no reason, bitches about me to everyone.

and inbetween those friends i just sat alone.

i think i’m just better alone. not trying.

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