so just to back up a little bit, i missed out on my dream. what i’ve been working my ass off for two years now for. i gave it my everything, and i didn’t make it.
so i was as optimistic as one could be and thought “next year, i’ll get it next year”.
turns out that “next year” (also my last chance) starts in 6 weeks.
i feel like i have insufficient time to improve enough to make it. and although i’m going to work my ass off again in the little time i have, i’m still worried.
and nobody seems to be supportive of me, apparently i’m been pessimistic and the responses i get from my parents are angry and usually end in “okay whatever. just give up then.”
it’s like. you don’t understand! even though i’m saying i’m worried about the time, i’m still going to try my hardest!
i think i’m going to start seeing my psychologist again. maybe that might be a good idea. that would seriously piss my parents off though, i don’t know if they’d let me.
